{addendum to the letter}
it's been well over a year, and in the midst of all the other learning and growing i've been doing, my heart's nagging for more has resurfaced.
i am getting closer and closer to fully calling you, drawing you to me. soon, i'll be singing your name to breezes and ocean waves, looking for visits in my dreams.
this spring, i began growing plants. the process has shown me that i need a love like a seed; a partnership between forces of nature, sprouted and nurtured in love, trust and acceptance.
after making due with men tangled up in obligations, i've also realized i need someone who mirrors my freedom, a man able to exert comparable energy in the creation and maintenance of our love.
i know i've hesitated to ask for that in the past, but i think i've earned the right to it now.
i am sassafrass rehabilitated, growing into my indigo self.
i hope you don't mind the moon falling from my mouth.
in loving anticipation,
o.
Showing posts with label magick. Show all posts
Showing posts with label magick. Show all posts
5.11.2011
12.04.2010
the sorceress
there was something about her...
the light magic and shape shifting
the cave she lived in
her calm poise and grace
her wisdom...
she didn't even need a name. she simply was.
the sorceress was my introduction to magic, female divinity, and a whole host of other things i wouldn't discover until over 20 years later.
it's amazing how the things we love as children can inform our paths as we grow....
4.01.2010
primordial (napowrimo #1)
not all wombs open as easily as legs.
there are many ways to warm a bed
and feed from breasts.
there was a time
when a woman unto herself
was understood
and embraced
as a different kind of ideal.
over time,
politics became important.
the men got suspicious
and aroused the suspicion of our sisters...
She said:
"it's all right.
from now on, you will just have to be brave.
respect that this path will be laced with broken glass
instead of leisure.
but you will know who you are.
and, if you learn your lessons well,
i will guarantee you want for nothing."
so, daughter,
we have always been here.
yes, some turned bitter
seeing our sisters' comforts;
the years of smug smiles and haughty glances
inspired the negative side of darkness.
therein lies the worst of our reputation.
still...
most of us
were simply good
and misunderstood.
there are many ways to warm a bed
and feed from breasts.
there was a time
when a woman unto herself
was understood
and embraced
as a different kind of ideal.
over time,
politics became important.
the men got suspicious
and aroused the suspicion of our sisters...
She said:
"it's all right.
from now on, you will just have to be brave.
respect that this path will be laced with broken glass
instead of leisure.
but you will know who you are.
and, if you learn your lessons well,
i will guarantee you want for nothing."
so, daughter,
we have always been here.
yes, some turned bitter
seeing our sisters' comforts;
the years of smug smiles and haughty glances
inspired the negative side of darkness.
therein lies the worst of our reputation.
still...
most of us
were simply good
and misunderstood.
3.14.2010
the ritual
they placed me on the altar...the tea they'd given me dulled my senses, made me sluggish and weary.
i snapped awake when i saw the knife hovering above my head, then my heart...
i begged them to spare me--anything but death. suddenly lucid, i wiggled my naked torso, struggling against the binding on my hands and feet, still begging, don't spill my blood...
an elder woman heard me and stopped the priest's hand.
her will is strong, she said. if she does not want to die, she must be put on trial.
i snapped awake when i saw the knife hovering above my head, then my heart...
i begged them to spare me--anything but death. suddenly lucid, i wiggled my naked torso, struggling against the binding on my hands and feet, still begging, don't spill my blood...
an elder woman heard me and stopped the priest's hand.
her will is strong, she said. if she does not want to die, she must be put on trial.
2.16.2010
good morning
easing out of dreams,
i am bathed in warm honey
that pools at the base of my spine,
rinsed in river water,
and loved.
i am bathed in warm honey
that pools at the base of my spine,
rinsed in river water,
and loved.
1.30.2010
an open love letter
to the tall, beautiful, kind-hearted brotha-i-don't-know-yet,
i have to admit, i am a little nervous, writing to you. see, some time ago, i thought i'd found the person i'd spend the rest of my life with. things didn't work out.
that's where you come in. events appear to have conspired to find us here, searching for one another across these spaces and times.
i have to admit, i am a little nervous, writing to you. see, some time ago, i thought i'd found the person i'd spend the rest of my life with. things didn't work out.
that's where you come in. events appear to have conspired to find us here, searching for one another across these spaces and times.
10.12.2009
prayer to oshun
{shared by oyin}
Give birth to the world, River.
Give birth to the world, Running Stream.
We beg to be full, we beg to be full, we beg to be full.
Teach the head, teach the head, teach the head,
Embrace the head of mothers, make them wise again, wise again, wise again.
Teach the tradition to those who do not know.
Open your arms to women that flee to safety.
My mother, I pay respect, I pay respect, I pay respect.
We shout to your ear, mother.
Come continually mother, be patient and understand us.
Teach worthiness as we honor you on the ground.
We honor you on the ground, we honor you on the ground, we honor you on the ground.
Let our deeds of charity habitually pull you.
My mother, house of tradition.
Queen of the mirror, Queen of Dance,
Queen of Abundance, Queen of Joy, Queen of Health.
My wealth arrives, my wealth arrives, my wealth arrives.
Mother arise, Arise inside of us.
Arise inside, arise inside, arise inside.
Teach us to have understanding.
Help us to be revered Ancestors.
We humble ourselves before you.
You, who give effective treatment to children.
You, who give fertility to people and projects.
You, who are Queen of the river.
Osun, come into my house. Osun, come into my house. Osun, come into my house.
Prayer taken from traditional sources including: The Handbook of Yoruba Religious Concepts, by Baba Ifa Karade, Samuel Weiser, Inc., York Beach, ME, 1994 and John Mason, Orin Ori, Yoruba Theological Archministry, Broolyn, NY, 1992.
Give birth to the world, River.
Give birth to the world, Running Stream.
We beg to be full, we beg to be full, we beg to be full.
Teach the head, teach the head, teach the head,
Embrace the head of mothers, make them wise again, wise again, wise again.
Teach the tradition to those who do not know.
Open your arms to women that flee to safety.
My mother, I pay respect, I pay respect, I pay respect.
We shout to your ear, mother.
Come continually mother, be patient and understand us.
Teach worthiness as we honor you on the ground.
We honor you on the ground, we honor you on the ground, we honor you on the ground.
Let our deeds of charity habitually pull you.
My mother, house of tradition.
Queen of the mirror, Queen of Dance,
Queen of Abundance, Queen of Joy, Queen of Health.
My wealth arrives, my wealth arrives, my wealth arrives.
Mother arise, Arise inside of us.
Arise inside, arise inside, arise inside.
Teach us to have understanding.
Help us to be revered Ancestors.
We humble ourselves before you.
You, who give effective treatment to children.
You, who give fertility to people and projects.
You, who are Queen of the river.
Osun, come into my house. Osun, come into my house. Osun, come into my house.
Prayer taken from traditional sources including: The Handbook of Yoruba Religious Concepts, by Baba Ifa Karade, Samuel Weiser, Inc., York Beach, ME, 1994 and John Mason, Orin Ori, Yoruba Theological Archministry, Broolyn, NY, 1992.
8.02.2008
100 things
from: http://www.north-node.com/astrology-tutorials/eclipse
*The Solar Eclipse list*
You can do this anytime between the Solar Eclipse and the next Full Moon.
Take out a sheet of paper and a pen. Find yourself a nice quiet spot. On the paper, make a list of 100 things you want. Don't hold back! Don't let your inner voice tell you that you can't have it. It will be hard to think of things after the first 50, but keep at it. Be positive: "I will get a raise," not "I want a raise."
Example:
1. I will make some new friends.
2. I will have a beach named after me.
3. I will be my own boss.
4. I will save the whales.
5. I will have a new car.
6. I will have a Xena Warrior Princess doll.
7. My houseplants will live long and be green.
…and so on.
When you are finished, place your list in an envelope, seal it, write the date on it, and put it in a sacred place in your home. Or you could just bless it and stick it in a drawer. You have just asked for what you want.
This is how you plant seeds. After 1 year has passed, take out your list, and see which of these seeds have taken root in your life.
*The Lunar Eclipse meditation*:
You can do this anytime between the Lunar Eclipse and the next New Moon.
Same as the Solar Eclipse list, except this is a little harder. This time, think of the things in your life you would like to bring to a close, finish, or end. That contract you want to get signed, that job you want to finish. That guilty feeling. That unhealthy relationship. That nasty smoking habit.
Take some time to sit in a quiet space and breathe. Visualize the inner workings of that habit, the issue, the situation, as people. Give them names and faces! My addicted smoker and my inner doctor. My gentle self and my angry self. Visualize them each holding one end of a rope, like a tug of
war. They can see each other now, how can they better understand one another? How can they work together to achieve balance? Picture each one gently dropping their end of the rope.
You have just asked for assistance from the universe to clear out old energies and make room for the things you want to bring in. There is great power in this request.
*The Solar Eclipse list*
You can do this anytime between the Solar Eclipse and the next Full Moon.
Take out a sheet of paper and a pen. Find yourself a nice quiet spot. On the paper, make a list of 100 things you want. Don't hold back! Don't let your inner voice tell you that you can't have it. It will be hard to think of things after the first 50, but keep at it. Be positive: "I will get a raise," not "I want a raise."
Example:
1. I will make some new friends.
2. I will have a beach named after me.
3. I will be my own boss.
4. I will save the whales.
5. I will have a new car.
6. I will have a Xena Warrior Princess doll.
7. My houseplants will live long and be green.
…and so on.
When you are finished, place your list in an envelope, seal it, write the date on it, and put it in a sacred place in your home. Or you could just bless it and stick it in a drawer. You have just asked for what you want.
This is how you plant seeds. After 1 year has passed, take out your list, and see which of these seeds have taken root in your life.
*The Lunar Eclipse meditation*:
You can do this anytime between the Lunar Eclipse and the next New Moon.
Same as the Solar Eclipse list, except this is a little harder. This time, think of the things in your life you would like to bring to a close, finish, or end. That contract you want to get signed, that job you want to finish. That guilty feeling. That unhealthy relationship. That nasty smoking habit.
Take some time to sit in a quiet space and breathe. Visualize the inner workings of that habit, the issue, the situation, as people. Give them names and faces! My addicted smoker and my inner doctor. My gentle self and my angry self. Visualize them each holding one end of a rope, like a tug of
war. They can see each other now, how can they better understand one another? How can they work together to achieve balance? Picture each one gently dropping their end of the rope.
You have just asked for assistance from the universe to clear out old energies and make room for the things you want to bring in. There is great power in this request.
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