abduction

you snatched me from the arms of my soul
now i'm lost
and can't tell you how to find me.

but you try anyway
a merciless trial and error
that almost always seems to make things worse for me.

yes, sometimes i want
easier lovers--
men more sensitive than
your life has allowed.
your erratic nature disturbs my peace.

you force fire out of me,
kick my cool down rambling staircases
break its neck
leave it bleeding...

the unexpected has become my life
and uncertainty rattles my bones.

still, i'm not always gonna tell you i'm hurting.

there has always been a haze over you and i...
no clear cut answers,
no whispers through the veil.

better speak up
show me what you've got
'cause it's all i have to go on.