i will not call you
even if i want to apologize.
it will have to wait until i can hold it together
breathe between words
i refuse to allow you
the smallest glimpse into my pain.
you don't deserve even the intention of comforting me.
is that wrong of me?
i have sacrificed too many dreams and too much love
my selfishness is tied to my survival
now, i can give you nothing
use some of the too much you already have
to soothe your conscience or
ease your lonely nights
...if you need it.
my tears keep me company
an aching heart keeps time when we dance
or, i will be...